I think

I think...
When you gone for a nite without contacting me
It's always be Fri and Sat nites.
I think of many things..may be funny..may be sad..but I think

You may be tired and sleep,
you may be with someone so you can't sms or answer the call,
you may promise the person that you won't call or sms me
when you are with him/her.

You always said "I don't call or sms you, doesn't mean that I don't think of you,"
but everytime you said this, I did not ask "why."

Why you can't call or sms when you go out?
I don't expect you to sms me or call me til don't have to be with frens but
some days you do, you sms til I don't even wan to reply but some days
you do not contact me at all.

Why? Why some days you do and some days you don't.

and what is the reason that you can't touch your phone...
is there someone watching? are you scared of someone knowing or
did you promise someone not to do so?
or is anyone stay with you at your house?

I think of many things, I think....but
I won't listen to other people.
I will wait til you are strong enough and explain everything to me.

I don't care those shit who try to make me down.
I care you .... and hope you will care my feeling as well.
I love you but I'm strong enough to stay without you if the thing is really unclear and I can't stand it. Tell me why, tell me what you have been doing.

Do not let me think !!
cz I do not think positively ...
we are far, we will nver be near in these months...
so prove it to me that you care....or do it more if you are ready to let me go...
or "we are good and we are fine"?