end up she made me feel the horror again.
It's my own fault actually,
those pics keep pop up in to ma mind.
I do love her...deeply...
and scared of her leaving me.
But, I can do nothing more.
She was gone since 3 pm and appeared into my
hp's screen at almost 1 am....
She asked from me a "trust."
Will you? What do you think if you are in my chair,
if you are sitting here...at my situation, my place.
Give her? or leave her?
To break up ...to leave her,
it will break my heart, obviously.
But....do I expect too much from a lil gal who
is in the kind of openness personality?
Do I hope to much in this love and relationship.
I was hurt, and I'm not sure the wound is really cured.
But this gal is really the one that I feel like
"dont wan to let her go."
I can feel, my words can't touch her heart...
I feel there are secrets ...
but what to do?
I'm a person...I hope she looks at me as a human and
stop treating me like I'm one of people who try to get her heart.
If she is not willing to, why did she accept me as her sumone in the first place.
Why she said that she waited for me to say this.
Someone plz help me to tell her,
if this is a game and if she still has any others,
just go.
I will feel painful but for a while before I stand up and
back to my life.
Tell her not to keep me wonder and worry about
who she will be with and what she will be doing.
My heart is not a toy...
and she has no right to play with it.
She may be doing this to someone but
face it, she has no right to do this to me.
Tell her to respect me coz I respect her since the day
I stand in front and ask her to be my gal.
I protect her when ppl talk bad and tel me not to be with her.
I work hard and save every penny to buy her ticket
just to see me for a short while.
Do I deserve to be in a game if she is playing my feeling?
Yes or No?
Help me to tell her that "I love her,"
does nt mean that I have to close my both eyes
cut my 2 legs and waiting for her to contact me.
She pays back to my love like tis?
or it's jus our misunderstanding and miscommunication?
My tears do drop
but I dont know for wat...
May be just bcoz of the things I dont know
and not clear about....
Not about that person..not about anyone anymore..
but it's about does she love me enuf to face her own heart.
I dun need her to tell all ppl in the world that we are in love
but I do need her to tell ppl that should know.
I feel like giving up soon...although
I think I wan to make everythg best for her.
I planned to back to help my mom to work
for a year before doin my master's...
Feel like waiting her to come bak if she has to go to UK or Aus..
buying a nice house to live in our country ...
get her a nice smart car that she likes...
I belive I can do that if she proves to me she is worth enuf..
I think of her all the time...
go shopping see things and even bought for her..
and got scold by my classmates...
Yeah..i dint do sumtin like tis for so long d..
I nver think of anyone except maself for so long d...
I only think how to lure gals and get to fuck them for free...
She made me changed...
For now, I dont know...
She keeps saying "love," but
I need something to back up her "love."
Only a word is not enuf...
Yeah..I'm bad..and even too bad...
but .. when I do love her...I give her al my heart and
do my best to give her everything in every aspect...
Tell her for me...
If she is not sure or not ready to stop..
talk to me,
tell me she is not ready...
tell me she still wanna have fun with several ppl...
tell her not to drag my life into suffer...
but if she is sure ... about me..
about being with me...
tell her to be sensitive and think of my heart...
She does nt hav to be with me 24 hours a day...
7 days a week..
everyone has space..
but ... tell her to find the meaning of the word "relationship"
from www.dictionary.com
tell her to see how many types of it and
if it's about Love..and being a gf of somone...
What does the word say??
Tell her my love is not a rubbish ...
or if it is..it the one tat cant be recycled..
I love her today..but if one day I do not love her...
I will nver again love her...
Tell her to take care of our love
once she decided to make a commitment...make it the best
She believes in God...
if it's the God's will for us to have this relationship
plz do not disappoint him...
tell her to try her best...not to cincai doing things like tis...
We do not believe in the same God but..
our God ... made us know...
and fell in love...
now it's about us...it depends on us...
How do we take care of the gift from our God??
Trust has to be earned, Love have to be prove. It's heartbreaking seeing u has to gone through this again. But then, u must have to keep ya head up... it wont be easy but i know u will make it. Love is not an easy subject to study, as well as human being... jus do ur part, and the rest leave it to GOD to lead ur way. HE will help u along. :) No worry babe! Cheers!
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