Another Day

Went to the test today, did not feel good with it.
I thought about what we argued a lot.
I went to college late and could not find the exam venue.
Luckily a lecturer helped me.
I ran around and looked every room, was sweating when reached the hall.

Out of 100 questions, I quite sure only 52 but it always like that lah.
Just pass the test is ok for me already.

I made you cry again today,
I asked too much from you again.

I don't know what is the limit.
You've already given me more than enough, but I never feel enough.

I hate we are not being together...
I miss you, miss the time you are here with me.

For now, it's like waiting to see you again but
don't know when.
Assignments, exams ...all are coming together.
I can't really concentrate especially the time that we quarrel,
just because of I start to talk about those things, again and again.

Please forgive me for what I did.
Every time I hurt you, my heart is breaking too.

I'm complicated, too complicated til even me myself do not understand
what I'm doing.
I want you but don't know why keep hurting you.

May be again, I'm scared ....
scared to be the one you have to hide from others,
scared you will not have only me.

I always feel I'm not good enough...but thx you one thing
one sentence you said to me..
"you are not my choices but you are my decision."
I will remember it,
may be one day, you will find that you made the very wrong "decision."

I love you, babe.
I'm sorry.... I will be better.