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Back home here at 1 a.m. I came up til my house d but suddenly thought that I 4got sumtin in my car..damn had to walk so damn far again.

Got a msg from you ... it kind of waking me up actually.. but it was a happy one.
Haha..I feel my blog is so confusing..sum days U, sum days she/her...watever lah..

I consider it as my diary... as long as I came bak to read and understan , Im ok wif it d..
These days may b using so Malaysian English but really feel like using it..
coz it's the way I communicate wif u..

Feel a lot intense chatting wif u today...I mean at first...
I do really miss you lots...I cry a lot just to read your words on screen...
I don't know.. I don't know why .. sometimes you act like a stranger to me..
Sometimes you answers are so cold...
I guess it s coz a lot of feelings inside you... you are still tired of things that have past..

I asked .. but I don't dare to ask more..I just think you will tell me sumting wen you wan me to know. You seem very stress ... and emo .. you may not know urself...
I don't dare to ask and to add any stress to you... I'm scared of you doing sumtin like tat again.

Listen to the song "more than word" you sent to me...
I understand something ... but... no energy..and can't explain about it now...
Have to force myself reading , studying for the test tmr...

Miss you but suddenly feel strong and relieve...
coz I met my best fren after dint c her for a year...
she was funny...we talked a lot and my heart feels better for awhile...now I'm alone again.

I'm trying to control myself ... not to show up in your life so often.

Love you ...nitex...