I am tired

I am really tired.
Many promises you have made, but none of them you can keep.
I tried by best to make the thing right, but it always goes wrong.
I don't know what to do more.
I have no more energy to fight.
I'm doing all these things alone to see you, to meet you and to be there for you.
Your words change every single time you talk to me.

I can't stand this feeling anymore.
I pray everyday that I will totally forget you when I open my eyes in the next morning.
You know how suffer it is to wait for someone this long?
You only think of me when someone hurts you..
You only miss me when something bad happens to you..

I won't do anything for you anymore.
There is still a month to go, so just take this time to decide..
Let's think do you still wanna see me or not..
Everything in my life will just be as I told you..
I'm gonna be in SEAGAMES for my work and if you decide not to see me,
I will just head home.

Our story had ended for one and a half year since the day I left Wuhan,
but your picture is never faded from my heart.
I know it's impossible between us because of the differences in our lifestyle, culture and so forth.

There may be plenty of good people for you to choose.
I'm just an ordinary person that has nothing special for you to remember.

If there is a chance to see you again in this life,
I wanna take it just to say the real "goodbye" to you.
I wanna end our story "beautifully."